Update

I finally have a job. I'm somewhat happy. I really want to buy a cat so I'm not so alone anymore, just letting you guys know, I doubt anyone even pays attention to this blog, but yeah


Godspeed, xoxo

San Antonio is beautiful (･_･;

Oh, it's been so long since I've written anything on here, I've been out of town and was supposed to stay out of town. There's been some crazy events throughout November and December.
The last time I was on here, I wrote of a dream I had which involved a Green House (Solarium), I thought to myself that in order to achieve the green house that I wanted I had to get a job as soon as possible so I set out for San Antonio where I would stay with my friend Elliott and start going to a trade school for Massage Therapy while handling a part time job anywhere they would accept me -- apparently the job economy there was superb, but boy were they wrong, I could not find a job anywhere.
Before I had left El Paso I had been talking to a friend named Robert who happens to be gay like me (by the way, no girls are of any interest to me anymore) He was pretty interesting. He had been going through a break-up with Nathaniel who might as well have been the Spawn of Satan. Ha-ha, Robert was really infatuated with Nathaniel cause that's all he would talk about. Over the first two weeks I was there, however, I developed a small crush on Robert, sad to say; it would never go anywhere cause Mr. Lehnhoff was to much in love with Nathaniel. (Robert moved from L.A. all the way to San Antonio to be with a guy that broke up with him after 3 months) Day after day, I grew tired of Robert and Elliott. Robert because he would always cry about his ex and Elliott cause he would talk shit about everyone he knew behind their back to the point where it was disgusting  -- apparently "I made a move on him", which would never happen, that caused me to go off on him and he denied every assumption that I asked him about. This is me and Robert, not gonna lie, I miss him ~

We all had to move out of the apartment that Elliott was in because he didn't pay the rent. He was gonna move back to El Paso, while me and Robert would stay in San Antonio and be roommates, but then one day while me and Elliott were talking; Robert had a panic attack and kept repeating " I have to go back home," So that meant I would have nowhere to stay or nothing to do, I had to stay with my Brother's ex girlfriend who had moved to San Antonio a while back just until I could find a ride back home  -- While I was staying there, Robert stayed with a girl named Jess whom I met while I was staying at Elliott's apartment. The day I left, Robert did not talk to me at all, he left earlier that day and I had to get all my stuff to go. A week went by and I had not talked to him, on Twitter he had put that his ex got with his ex ex which is a crazy situation. I tweeted that I loved him, and we soon started talking again. That same night we hung out, drank beers, did drugs, we went back to my friend Jess's apartment where him and I were alone wired and drunk, soon after; one thing led to another and we had finally made love. It was awkward the next morning . But time went by -- I told him to come to where I was staying so we could hang out. We got drunk again and ended up making out again. Nothing happened that night but post awkward silence. I told my brother's ex girlfriend to take him home, ever since that day I have not talked to him, I miss him so much -- but alas I'm back home as is he, where we both belong. I never got a job, I never registered for school, I never did anything. This is why love should be forbidden.

Robert got me into this song, even though I hated it when I first heard it, I can't get it out of my head now:

What's next

Straight

I had the weirdest dream. Well, not that weird; it was just unusual.
I was in a house that had huge windows with the sun shining crazy right through it. Since I love plants a lot I got really excited in the dream. I was thinking to myself, "Wow, my plants would love this house." I wouldn't consider it a lucid dream, perhaps a "lucid thought" dream. All I know is that I was very happy.
       I finally told the girl that I liked her and all she did was send me a smile. Now I know why I'm gay. Girls are just too confusing. I still like her, don't get me wrong. But when both me and the person I like are stubborn, it's not so much a good thing. We'll see what happens. Also: Enjoy this song!

Pointless

Today has been so shitty, in my opinion. I was all over the city applying for jobs. Not even good jobs. But jobs none-the-less, I'd rather be making money than none. I applied at a hotel (a prestigious one) and I really hope they call me. It was interesting being in there because I was getting gawked at left and right. I didn't care, though. That place looks like it makes you more than minimum wage. That's a thumbs up in my eyes.
Now I'm at home drinking tea, waiting for Monday to roll in and hopefully give me a phone call from a good employer.
Also! I am madly in love with a girl on Tumblr. She doesn't know who I am yet. We have talked previously though. I just don't understand how I am attracted to a girl. I'm gay. It's not even an infatuation. I don't know, but everything she puts on Tumblr has me in awe. Pictures of her or just summaries about how her day was makes me happy. I need to start talking to her. Too bad California is a ways from good ol' Texas.

Super Rainbow

Look what came in the mail. Actually, it came in yesterday. But I was too lazy to upload it. I was so excited. They also sent me three little stickers. If and when I ever get a car, I'm so sticking them on there.

Thank God for Black Moth.

I love that they somehow actually do have that 'roller skater' sound in this album.

Chinese

I went to my favorite Chinese restaurant today, courtesy of my Grandparents. It was so delicious. We talked about all the bands my Grandma saw during her prime. She saw Iron Maiden live. I was pretty jealous.

I would love to see the pioneers of what music is today. Most of the music I am not proud of, such as Lady Gaga or Lana Del Rey.

By the way, this is where I live, "my city." The one I love so much i want to leave.

Black Moth

I am not gonna lie, I'm kind of excited that I made this blog. So one interesting thing happened today.
Black Moth Super Rainbow released Cobra Juicy, and Tom Fec E-mailed the link to me.
I'm still waiting for my lenticular record to get here though. I'm excited! Their album by the way, is great!

Spraypaint | Black Moth Super Rainbow